~Drawing Near~

Currently, I'm reading John Bevere's 'Drawing Near' after Pastor Benny's 'Good Morning, Holy Spirit', the reason for doing so is really to protect this hunger for God, and the things of the Spirit, that i once lost, yet found by the grace of God. And personally I realised that this is so so important, because our core motivation for being a Christian is not to attend church, attend Bible studies, to serve God in a ministry or to evangelise, even though all this things are important, and are absolutely necessary. But i say again that our core motivation is still to pursue after God. And when you have done so, the rest of the things that i just mentioned will naturally fall in place.

Friends, there is one thing that all of us must very sure of, and that is God is yearn for our communion and fellowship. In Rev 3:20, Jesus says that He is standing at the door of our hearts knocking, and who ever hears His voice and opens the door, He will come in and eat with us, and we with Him. In is much as this verse is always use to share with the unsaved about God's desire to fellowship with us, but if know the context of the Word, Jesus is speaking to His church. When Adam first sinned and hid himself from the presense of God, God's reaction is not, "COME OUT ADAM!!! How dare you sin against me!!! I'm going to strike you with a lightning bolt!!!" no, but instead God was saying to Adam, "Where are you? Why are you hiding from Me? I yearn for your fellowship!"

Let's hear the heartbeat of God...... It has been the same since the beginning of creation....... "Draw near to God, and He will draw near to you......" Jas 4:8

If thats the case, why aren't people drawing near? Let me ask you a question, if you just had buffet for lunch, will you so desire for 10 course dinner? I don't think we will despise the dinner, but we definately won't desire it as much. Why? The lunch buffet had already satisfy our appetite. Similiarly, we won't be desiring after God if our spirit or emotional appetite is already satisfied by other stuff such as entertainment, leisure, material possessions, success in work and even other human relationship like our BGR and so on. I'm not saying that all these things are bad, in fact, we do need to enage in all these things in balance, to stay relevant and to impact the market place, but, what am I trying to say is that, all the things that I've mentioned above should not be the satisfaction of your souls. They should be things that we can do or to do without, cos they don't satisfy the desires of my soul, God does! Jesus You're more than enough for me...(sorry for the long lapse in the post, written the draft of this don't know how many hundred years ago, haha...)

~Pouring Out~

Well, I believed Pastor Benny's meeting has really brought many of our spiritual lives into the next level. Personally, I've grown to be even more hungry for the Holy Spirit, and yearned for His fellowship as He yearns for mine, I really recommend all of you to grab hold of the book titled, 'Good Morning, Holy Spirit.' In which Pastor Benny shared his conversion and how he fellowshipped with the Holy Spirit, together with many other powerful encounters with the Lord.

I was very drawn into the content of the book and really started to fellowship and yearn for the Holy Spirit and His the annointing. And I slowly realised that in my search for the Holy Spirit and His power, the other things in my life doesn't really matter as much as before. I'm more cautious of my words, actions and thoughts, as I try my best not to quench the Spirit of God. The Fear of God is became evident in my life. Suddenly, surrendering to God things that I once struggled with is so easy. I guess I'm beginning to see what is to live is Christ and to die is gain. Truely, if we want the power of resurrection, we must first go through the crucifixion of self..... sounds scary ar? Haha... but I believe it is worth it. Just today, one of my camp-mates shared this with me while reading a biography of D.L. Moody. He says that if we as vessels are filled with self-centeredness, our own ambition and things of this world, we have no room for God, its only when we begin to pour out 'Self' and whatever that comes along with it, Then God will pour in His Holy Spirit, His Power, His annointing......

Friends, its time to come thirsty for the Spirit of God......

Finally.. something about me

Haha, what a funny title, even i can't help but to laugh at it myself, but seriously, this is the first time i'm posting something about myself and not anything spiritual after i started off this blog.

Well, this few weeks is rather hectic for me, every weekend seems so short, however they are fruitfully spent. Almost all my saturdays in march are similar, its service followed by a quick dinner and Benny Hinn's choir pract, although its quite tiring, but i really enjoyed myself in every session, not really because i enjoyed singing, even though i do, but some how or rather something real funny will happen during the practice, haha... actually its always the extreme low keys, and all the monotone parts that spark off the laugher. But it always seems like my group of friends and I were the only ones laughing.

Full Dress Rehersal @ Jurong West

(SG RuLz! Haha...)

But last week is kind of tough for me, firstly its easter weekend. Secondly i had to move outfield for training, as you know, I'm already half a civilian (ORD Loh!!!), and it has been ages since I last move outfield. As a result, I wasn't really feeling well after that. But nvm lah, cos its only 2 or more working weeks before i start clearing my off and leave. Yeah!!! No more Sir, no more LTA Tan, just Mr Tan.... HAHAHAHA!!! (sorry kinda loss control, but cannot blame me lah, after 2 years...).

I'm really looking forward to the next phase of my life be it studies or work, but i believe with the grace of God, its time to buckle up and prepare to move up to the level . Amen! well, signing off here guys! Keep you guys updated soon! =)